Sick of crying

Sick of crying
tired of trying
yeah im smiling but inside
im dying
the window cracks
then breaks
then shatters
you pushed me down
down to the ground
my heart became like those shattered windows
cracked in two
then in a million
empty like a vase
fragile like glass
uneven like a crack
heavy as a weight unstable like a roller-coaster
that's what it all is
ups down
then a sudden stop
but never really starts again
one more day
one more hour
30 seconds
time is slow
can't move
hardly breathing
all is blurred can't see
can't speak...
smile, its better than trying to explain to someone
why you're sad