This is me

I love to jam it makes me feel like I can do something right
I feel alive its something I can create
for my ears only
I'm in a different world
I feel at home
I feel safe
I can be...me

I wish we didn't fall apart

After all this time...
I don't know what to say
I love you?
We're done?
You had you're chance?
I miss you?
I've never cared about anyone more?
I thought you were different?
I thought I could trust you?
I wish we weren't so complicated?
I wish our love was simple?
I wish I knew you truly loved me?
I wish you didn't cheat...

Him

Sweet
Caring
Amazing








Sad
Lost
Scared

Loving
Helpful
Peppy

Horrible
Suborn
Rude

Funny
Cute
Nice







Lying
Cheating
Bastard

Sick of crying

Sick of crying
tired of trying
yeah im smiling but inside
im dying
the window cracks
then breaks
then shatters
you pushed me down
down to the ground
my heart became like those shattered windows
cracked in two
then in a million
empty like a vase
fragile like glass
uneven like a crack
heavy as a weight unstable like a roller-coaster
that's what it all is
ups down
then a sudden stop
but never really starts again
one more day
one more hour
30 seconds
time is slow
can't move
hardly breathing
all is blurred can't see
can't speak...
smile, its better than trying to explain to someone
why you're sad

This is her

This is what she thinks

This is what she is

This is what we see

This is what she sees

Self harm

                                                                          

We need help

...Please...

.

Water

I like water

as soon as I jump in 

its quiet 

dark 

peaceful

I'm in a different world 

one where its colder on the outside than it is on the inside 

it feels soft on my skin 

and I wish 

I wish I could stay under there forever

I lose myself and become a different person

one that doesn't care about any of these problems

but finally, I have to take a breath

and it all rushes back 

all the pain and anguish floods over me

so I take a deep breath... And go back under

trying desperately to forget...

My mothers love GMH

Let your heart heal.

Three years ago my mother was diagnosed with cancer
we were told by the doctors she wasn't going to make it...
She proved them wrong, her perseverance and love GMH