Weak

I'm not as strong as I like to think I am

Why is it that when I'm alone

I feel like I need to scream my guts out

that I have to cry to breathe

like I need to hurt to make sure I'm really alive
and not in some horrible nightmare

Let me breathe

I wish my family would speak to each other. 

That our conversation didn't revolve around my fathers constant yelling

I hate that I can't breathe in my own home...

Stop pretending

You say you have to pretend well who the fuck are you pretending for if you tell everyone you're pretending. You say you feel bad for having to pretend you are the fun girl you used to be. We all grew up we're all different. Get the fuck over it, I'm not the same either.
No one is pressuring you to be anyone but you...
Why can't you let yourself be that person?

I'm losing myself

Alone

Why am I so depressed when I'm alone

LET ME SLEEP!!!